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2009-11-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

I felt so loved.

Crawl.

2009-10-28T12:24:00.001+08:00

There's basically nothing much to say here. Life is pretty good. A simple one. Nothing interesting. School been ok. Grades were awesome. Myself? Surviving against the frequent sickness.

That's about it.
(:

Let's junk!

2009-09-28T03:59:00.001+08:00

This is the time when I really need to get loose.
(:

Sense.

2009-09-21T16:29:00.000+08:00

Some things are difficult to differentiate, like black and white lies. Like the good and the bad intentions of letting go. It’s like no matter what you do or how hard you try, you can’t seem to bring yourself to understand that there are good intentions of letting go, that some people are that brave to give up all that once was for everything that will and can be. And for them to say we deserve “better”? It’s almost as if we feel betrayed. We refuse to accept it so we choose to believe the worst of it. How can loving someone so much drive them away? It doesn’t make sense.

-minaslumber

Nice.

2009-09-12T10:12:00.000+08:00

It feels so great to pretend that life been doing great.

Typical.

2009-09-09T01:50:00.001+08:00

It's not a mistake, just another learning point.

.

2009-09-08T14:46:00.000+08:00

Tired.

Long time ago.

2009-09-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling it now.
Dammit!

High.

2009-09-06T02:23:00.000+08:00

The turning point in the process of growing up is
when you discover the core of strength within you that survives all hurt.

<3

Now.

2009-09-05T01:36:00.001+08:00

You assured me, I'd be fine if I complied.
(:

Smile.

2009-09-04T00:29:00.000+08:00

like nothing ever happen.
that's all i can do now.
just smile.

Ego under maintenance.

2009-09-02T22:25:00.002+08:00

Finally, I'm done with deep thinking.
I'm relieved. I'll just enjoy the ride while I'm still on it.

Heart VS Mind.

2009-09-02T11:37:00.003+08:00

Once, I came across a saying "If you think you can't deal, just walk away."
Should I take the saying as a form of motivation. Or, just take the risk?
Let's do some deep thinking.

Spell.

2009-08-30T22:04:00.005+08:00

ego's tripping.
till when? till you regret? and spend your whole life jaded?
why don't you break the cycle? let love win!

♥

2009-08-28T23:22:00.001+08:00

So we go on and on on this merry go round, trying to chase a love that can never be found.

Thank God.

2009-08-25T14:05:00.002+08:00

Of all the blessings life can bring.

Unexpected 20th.

2009-08-20T23:07:00.003+08:00

20 August has always been the dreadful day. The day I've always wanted it to end fast. But as much as I didn't wanna celebrate it, friends have always been very sweet and full of surprise.

Before today ends, I would like to thank all friends, strangers, cousins, for every words, every wishes, every presents, every thoughts. Be it through face to face, smses, calls, facebook, tagged, msn, friendster etc.

Thank you very much. Just for everything. That basically happened today. You guys made it worthwhile. May God bless you!

I'm happy.
=D

I need help.

2009-08-19T20:26:00.000+08:00

UT 3 tomorrow.
I'm dead!

Downgrade.

2009-08-17T09:58:00.006+08:00

I'm such a letdown. Haha!
And no, it's not funny, Sue. It's not!
So today,

1) No facebook.
2) No procrastinating.
3) No sleeping.
4) No online movie.
5) No msn-ing.

hais. and aku kene marah ngan amy lagi.
tsktsk.

Hot hot stuff.

2009-08-16T17:05:00.000+08:00

Speed of life.

2009-08-14T01:09:00.000+08:00

I'm very shagged!

Mota.

2009-08-12T16:17:00.000+08:00

i wanna puff puff, some of the dutch stuff.
i wanna puff puff, give me the green green stuff.

Stupid,

2009-08-08T22:31:00.002+08:00

Why do people fall in love, if they know that they are not able to trust each other.

Lethargic.

2009-08-07T09:40:00.003+08:00

Affairs for the heart nearly got me flying of the handle.

Maybe I'll just see what tomorrow brings.

Strong.

2009-08-06T03:21:00.002+08:00

I won't lose my dignity. I won't.

2009-08-04T13:48:00.001+08:00

Just try harder.

I'm so very numb.

I will go the distance.

2009-08-01T10:50:00.003+08:00

I still believe my feelings.
Sometimes, I believe too much.

You make me crazy.

2009-07-30T11:19:00.003+08:00

What am I suppose to do now? What you tryna do?
I'm just too tired to think. To confused to decide.

Let's put it on the low. For now.

♥

2009-07-28T14:06:00.002+08:00

if we were truthful to each other, we won't be this hurt.

i can. i will. i must.

2009-07-26T13:33:00.001+08:00

Withdrawal really sucks.
*shivers*

Tired.

2009-07-25T04:17:00.002+08:00

I've always thought that my heart was at my sleeve
but today, someone prove me wrong.
This gonna hurt me badly, again.

I hate this part right here.

I love my people.

2009-07-24T13:52:00.001+08:00

Lovely people. Lovely Thursday!

All about trust.

2009-07-23T01:47:00.002+08:00

After so long, we finally get to meet.
Iloveyou!

Come, tell me more.

2009-07-22T11:13:00.002+08:00

Some say eat or be eaten. Some say live and let live.
But all are agreed as they join the stampede.
You should never take more than you give.

I MISS MY MAMAAA!

A whole new life.

2009-07-21T22:07:00.002+08:00

I just can't be bothered anymore. At least, I'm trying to.
):

Long time coming.

2009-07-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

"you can think you've got everything but
everything is nothing when you throw it away"

(:

With nothing, but honesty.

2009-07-18T20:19:00.002+08:00

You make me c.o.n.f.u.s.e.d!

Are yoou catching my drift yet?

2009-07-17T21:47:00.001+08:00

Will it really kill you to not be right this time?

Reminder.

2009-07-17T14:27:00.002+08:00

1) Continue my driving practical.
2) Pay hospital bills
3) Pay school fees.

Partner in crime.

2009-07-16T02:13:00.003+08:00

I swear he took 80% of my time, because I just can't stop thinking what will happened to him. And I'm soo disappointed with myself. Now, I lose a tangkis. A so-called boyfriend. A younger brother. A best friend. An uncle. A partner in crime. Sounds like everything. Nearly, at the very least.

I lose just someone who I can always rely on when I want a listening ears. Someone very close. My so-called boyfriend. All I can do is pray for a fair deal. I'll just see him once in a blue moon and yes, we will enjoy together once you're out!

I'm going to miss you.

Never over.

2009-07-15T10:18:00.002+08:00

I'm sick.
Not again.

Because this isn't just about being happy.

2009-07-14T21:37:00.002+08:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I found this link at Afan's blog. So yeah, thanks Afan! And I swear this quiz was quite scary. Because everything seems right. But let's not believe in this, at least, try not to.

(;

When two world collide.

2009-07-12T19:11:00.003+08:00

It annoys me every time people says "Hey, I've seen you before. You look very familiar." or "You Sureena right? I'm blahblahblah's friend." It makes me wonder if I've seen them before. It's not good. Not at all.

It's super irritating.

Today was just great.

2009-07-11T02:45:00.002+08:00

1) School was pretty much short and sweet.
2) The first pillion (other than Aiee) on Nad's bike.
3) Got lost while trying to find Yishun Dam. (we spend 90% of our time finding the damn place)
4) Bike give problem when on the way home. (we had to fucking push the bike. imagine 2 girls pushing a scrambler at 1am.)
5) Aunts and uncle fetched me from Yishun. (and it was already 2am. they were laughing at how cute we were. nyahahaha.)

And no, I'm not complaning. I just love these challenges. Makes my day worthwhile. And my day wasn't boring at all. So Nad, don't feel bad. Because I had FUN and I truly mean it. I don't mind being your pillion again.

I love you.

Singapore is small.

2009-07-10T02:29:00.008+08:00

"hadif says you're hot. but you got lots of scandals."

favour, part scandal tak perlu. sandals banyak.

Late Night Talking.

2009-07-09T19:28:00.003+08:00

She couldn't help but wonder if it was her own failing. Perhaps it was her upbringing. The silent legacy of the heart, that love is fallacy, that it simply doesn't exist. That love is overrated and that there's more to life, like having fun. Or perhaps it was simply a matter of luck, or the lack of it.

But it's all goood.
(;

Dipenjara hati.

2009-07-08T14:18:00.001+08:00

I woke up by a received mesage saying "Wei babi, aku miss ko bodoh. Maner ko? Tak dpt get thru pun." I smiled to myself. And again, I laughed to myself, getting to know that the message supposed to reach to me yesterday.

I think both of us have to throw our handphone away.

(;

Tuesday.

2009-07-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

It's funny how things start to break apart everytime you feel like it's getting back into pieces. It's funny how things start to get uncontrolled when you had already try your best to get it in hand. It's funny how things happened at a time when you least expect it. And it's funny how things seems so unreal yet it existed in reality.

Simple, it's just a funny world after all.

The best sometimes fall.

2009-07-07T02:45:00.003+08:00

Somebody gonna kill me for this. But who cares! This is what you get for making my stomach literally growling in class. Tak berhati perut peh orang!!! See that buruk face. Tak senonoh makan gitu! And to add up to the amount of miserable moments I had, class was VERY stressful.

On a brighter note, after school hours were great. Arcade, photography session and more. Everything was soo beautiful but ruined just when I got online. You just had to dampen my mood right. You just had to. So whose making whose life difficult now? You or me? Think and think again. Look at yourself before saying others. Got a brain? Or you think with your butt? Poor boy.

And oh yeah, I miss you too, Mr.
(;

Something that I like.

2009-07-05T16:13:00.004+08:00

I don't think I need any drugs. Because you're my sweetest drug, ever.
And oh, I miss you! At least for now.

HeHe!

Something different.

2009-07-04T03:51:00.002+08:00

You act like you don't understand boy, why don't you just listen?

Eyes opener.

2009-07-03T04:30:00.003+08:00

He looks like you. You look like him. You talk like him. He talks like you. He treated me the same like you do and vice versa. Not to nice, not to bad. So much similarities, so little differences.

Maybe I like that type.

I keep on pondering, and on. And on.

And I never stop.

But maybe, this will end soon.

Quarantine till 4th July.

2009-07-01T20:16:00.004+08:00

Thanks Afan for the name and the picture.. Sounds nice though. And I'm being nice here cos I didn't post your busuk face. Nyahahahah!

And sorry for not updating much. I'm pretty much very sick. So yeah. Take care people. Practice good hygiene.

Goodnight!

My lips like sugar.

2009-06-28T07:33:00.003+08:00

*phone ringing and I picked up*
"Ey girl. Lu dah apesal. Lu janji mau meet gua pah! Lu ada date ngan gua pah. Pahal lu tido!"
*look at the time, 11.45pm*
"Sial ahh. Lek ahh bleh bebual pah. Wa tau. Wa siap skrg ahh. Lu tunggu jek."
"Lu siap lincah2. Gua kasi lu 5 minit ja. Lu kecoh ahh."
"Ahhhh kk. Wa lincah skrg. Lu sampai, lu picit. Wa proceed."

And yes, I was talking to my aunt.

Funny aunt.
(:

Unexpected.

2009-06-27T20:42:00.002+08:00

When I least expect you to call, you just had to give me a surprise.

Thanks love.

Love.

2009-06-26T21:51:00.001+08:00

I find you, errrr intriguing.
If only I've got the confident.

Hmm.

Elfy.

2009-06-26T01:22:00.003+08:00

I miss blabbering and never get tired. I miss teasing and never get scolded. I miss a whole lot of things.

I just miss Elfy. Very very much.

They come and go.

2009-06-25T12:50:00.000+08:00

Just give another 1 week. Everything will be gone.

And this continue, over and over again.

And the reason in you.

2009-06-24T18:26:00.003+08:00

It was all worthwhile. Thank you.

The maturity level isn't up to standard.

2009-06-23T04:04:00.002+08:00

It's funny how the youngsters wanna act big and powerful while the older one wanna act young and kental. Yes, I'm talking about myself here. I think I'm still young in every single way. And I love it this way. I'm not ready to grow too fast not like some kids nowadays.

I find myself laughing to all those people who are definitely younger, not by a yr but more than 3 years, talking among themselves. The way they react to gestures, comments etc. Sometimes I felt sad, for the fact that the world is really turning all around. The young wanna act old and the old wanna be young again.

A funny world indeed, with funny people.

And funny kids.
*shake head*

Life's a beach.

2009-06-22T10:44:00.002+08:00

And another day of staying at home. I can't seems to wake up despite Fen leaving me a misscall and message me "Oi tak bangon eh!" How am I suppose to answer that when I'm sleeping like some pig.

But it's all good. He promised to treat me if I start coming back to school. And yes, I will. I'm just too tired.

(;

Finally.

2009-06-21T15:36:00.000+08:00

Sentosa, a blast!
Pictures will be up soon.

Hope.

2009-06-20T06:16:00.002+08:00

Pray to God that today is really happening. I need this enjoyment. Please. Now, I'll head to bed. See you guys at Siloso or maybe Zouk?

Morning.

getting tired of people talking.

You're ours.

2009-06-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

I felt so loved. The way you said it sounds so warming. It's like I know where I belong. Dah macam National day song pulak.

Alright.

FT

2009-06-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

I'M IN LOVE WITH FARM TOWN!

My newest addiction.

2009-06-18T07:45:00.004+08:00

"What you doing ahh Reen baby?"
"Working on people's farm. I need money and points!"
"Tak habes-habes farm towning ey. Muke pekebum lah you.
Nanti ade duit jual anggur, blanje k!"
"Hahaha. Okaay can. I'm ohso addicted to this man. Hais."
"And yes, I'm addicted to messaging you. Gila per aku!"
"HAHAHAAHAHA. Fen sayang, you're so funneh!"

(;
Morning!
I swear I woke up just to hire Raz to harvest my grapes.
Nampaknyer Raz, kau pon sangkot jugak!

Nice shot.

2009-06-17T05:13:00.001+08:00

I made 2 new friends who shares the same hobby as me.
Only that I'm an amateur, they are experts.

Goodnight!
I mean, Morning!

(;

Proposal.

2009-06-16T00:01:00.004+08:00

Tiesto, you set my temperature rising.

Will you marry me?

xXxXx

Hang ge ri!

2009-06-15T14:07:00.009+08:00

1) Had a sleepless night.
(it isn't not enough sleep, it's never sleep at all)

2) Was super hungry, like very.
(didn't manage to grab any breakfast)

3) Didn't bring my wallet to school.
(not even a cents in my hand, clever sue.)

4) Contact lens were being sucha bitch
(thus, had to wear specs)

5) Nearly fainted three times on the way home.
(was tripping all the way and laughing)

And I'm still hungry. But I did went to school. Congrats Sue!

Misery.

2009-06-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

Goodbye holidays! Hello Republic Polytechnic!

Boring.

2009-06-13T14:01:00.002+08:00

Forget about all those drinking. Forget about having fun. Forget about lying naked at the beach. My life is just so boring. Today, just another Stay Home Saturday.

This is the best school break I've ever had.

Get drunk and wasted.

2009-06-12T21:52:00.002+08:00

Come follow me to Badaville tomorrow.

Alasanmu.

2009-06-12T04:59:00.005+08:00

I'm too bored and hungry that I just find the urge to miss Syam.
And that's really a stupid reason.

Plus looking at my own blog, it's enough to make me trip.
With all those colours. Kero mate!

Friends.

2009-06-11T15:15:00.000+08:00

What? Who? Where? How? When? Why?

Something to think about.

I'm really drained but maybe some alcohol will do the trick.

Chemical and Acid.

2009-06-10T05:25:00.004+08:00

The only way to forget the world and be h.a.p.p.y!

Come, I need boozes! Please.

Orang pulau.

2009-06-09T21:09:00.000+08:00

"Diko buat ape?"
"Tak ape2 ahh. Ey, my nenek kenal your mother you know. I show her your pic and your mom yang kat Tagged."
"Really? How come you're at my Tagged?"
"No lah. I was Tagged hopping. Then my nenek next to me, so I just go to your profile and show her."
"Don't lie, you miss me right right right.! Cakap je lah."
"Nooooooooooooooooooooooo!"
"Jangan nak tipu2 lah. Bilang aje you rindu i. Ape susah. Nak jumper Thurs or Fri? Decide now!"
"I don't know. Tengok ahh I jumper you ke tak."
"Ahhhh, taknak jumpe cakap jelahh. Tak yah nak step blom decide."
"Hohohoh. Tengok lu k."
"You mane nak jumper I lagi!"
"Tau tkpeee. Horny guy! MUHAHAHAHAHA!"

You know him?

2009-06-08T05:03:00.000+08:00

I hate it when everybody knows everybody.

This use to be freaky but now, it's super irritating.

Hmmph!

All about you.

2009-06-08T03:33:00.000+08:00

Second thoughts.

Gila.

2009-06-07T15:16:00.001+08:00

Kid Masochrist is "Phlegmatic" says:
OI!
Sureena. says:
HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHA
Kid Masochrist is "Phlegmatic" says:
ROGOL AKU!
Sureena. says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
whyy?
Kid Masochrist is "Phlegmatic" says:
sebab aku sakit?
haha!
i saw a dead man yesterday!!
Sureena. says:
WTF
REALLYYYY?
Kid Masochrist is "Phlegmatic" says:
abe skg sakit

Masai.

2009-06-05T02:22:00.002+08:00

NIE MASAI RABAK!

Drained.

2009-06-04T02:25:00.002+08:00

I'm glad that I managed to actually fold all those washed clothings. Dah macam borong pakaian. Haha! I swear I'm damn tired and cranky till I just had to off my handphone as people keep calling and I just can't be bothered to entertain anyone of them.

Today just not my day;

Question of the day.

2009-06-03T06:08:00.003+08:00

Why are you so arrogant and step jual mahal?
"Because I'm taking a very good care of myself. Rather be called arrogant than fuck and go kind."

this will answer all your queries. can?

Outlook.

2009-06-03T01:23:00.003+08:00

"Kau poly ey?"
"Ahh ahh. Asal?"
"Ohhhh." *giggle*
"Sial. Tak nampak mcm budak poly ke?"
"Tak sak. Macam ITE lagi ade."

I swear I got that a lot of times.

I'm tired. Goodnight!

Crazy.

2009-06-02T00:30:00.004+08:00

Kid is really mind torturing me, I swear.
And Cikme wants to add in the torture.

ARGH!
ARGH!
ARHGGGGH!

Insomnia.

2009-06-01T04:33:00.004+08:00

So infectious. I like~

(;

Attitude problem.

2009-05-31T23:43:00.000+08:00

*buang tebiat pat rumah pakai shades*

Haiss.

2009-05-31T22:33:00.002+08:00

A waste.
Such a waste.

Falling awake.

2009-05-29T22:09:00.004+08:00

He said "in my dream, you make out with me at a park and end up being chase by a big smelly hairy creature!"

Poor boy!

(;

Intangible.

2009-05-29T02:04:00.004+08:00

Sorry to have made my family, relative and friends worried yesterday. I am still alive, not to worry. Hehe. I know Syimah would be saying "Sue, this isn't funny!" Hah.

(;
I swear I felt so loved.
And cared.
And loved.
And cared.
And happy.

Nice.

2009-05-28T18:12:00.003+08:00

Short meet up with my cousin. And yes, she won't stop talking and 'promoting' Farid(!)

"Kak, Farid cakap kau macam jual mahal. Tknk layan die gitu."
"Errr, where got sia. He don't expect me to msg him everytime whattt!"
"He got the looks. The attitude. What else you want?"
"I WANT NO ACCOMPANIIONSHIP! THANKYOU!"

Haha.

Meeting Lynn now, bye!
(:

Kraven.

2009-05-27T12:29:00.000+08:00

A last minute visit. Had to cancel my meetup with Sham and Lynn. And yeah, it was quite okay. Nothing much on a Tuesday night but I did have my fun. Plus quite a number of sedaps. But once I step into my house, booom booom powww! Had a big fat fight with my family. Shouting and all. I swear I was in the verge of going back out of the house.

Tired.

Shagged.

Cranky.

Fucked up.

I can't be bothered. My head was heavy and I am fucking sleepy. I straight away throw myself to the sofa and close my ears. At a point of time, I feel like shouting back at them but I know it will only lead to a much bigger fight. I do rather have my peaceful sleep than wasting time quarelling. I need a break.

cb.

Seal.

2009-05-26T12:50:00.004+08:00

A kiss is just a kiss.
Nothing more, nothing less.

(;

The late night fight.

2009-05-26T10:02:00.008+08:00

I'm still traumatize and breathless.

Due to the excessive tickling on my neck.
And those stupid jokes that made me laugh
like a non-stop hit yesterday.
And the playing with the hump(!)

Thanks ahh Johnny Depp wannabe!

I wish you bluebirds in the spring.

2009-05-25T08:15:00.000+08:00

A hint of love, a bit of fear.

);

2006.

2009-05-24T00:06:00.010+08:00

And today, guess who I met in the world of information technology? Haha. I met Kecik! After 3 fucking years. The last time I saw him was when? Zaman tak tau ape itu club ey! Hahaha. It was such a long time ago.

Chatlog with him.

Hahaha. He used to be my scandal when I was 16/17? We talked and reminise how young and naive we were. It was really funny, I swear. I spend my time laughing my ass out. How he got to know my family first than my own bf (ex). Kenal sampai makcik, nenek semua. Hahaha!

And I'm still laughing.

On another bright note, had a baking and karaoke session with Nad.

It was a great day. Now, it's sleeping time. Goodnight!

that's what you think and see, i'll make reality.

Those days.

2009-05-23T00:00:00.002+08:00

I was browsing through my photobucket and I came across these photos. Zaman 16/17 years old ey!! Hahahaha! Those innocent faces.

I swear I'm laughing like crazy....

and choke on own saliva!

HAHAHAHA! zomgzomgzomg!

Chad Michael Murray.

2009-05-22T23:15:00.001+08:00

*droooooooooooooooooooooooooools*

Supposingly.

2009-05-22T01:33:00.004+08:00

It's ridiculous!

Green eyed monster.

2009-05-21T03:22:00.004+08:00

I'm taken by the thought of it, and I know that much is true.

Baby, you have become my addiction, I'm so strung out on you.

And it's all because of you.

Pyramidteck!

2009-05-20T09:16:00.000+08:00

I don't know why but when I look at you I come to life.

(;